Goodbye

the darkness overwhelms, I’m losing my sight
I watch in terror — leaving me is this beautiful light
it came to save me in my time of need
in the form of a white knight on his trusty steed
he came to profess his undying love
I saw him as a messenger, sent from above
I know he thought it was the truth
but reality is fighting claw and tooth
instead of being loved I’m about to die
and all I can do is watch as the world passes me by
all the brightly colored smiling faces
all the different settings, different places
everything is gone and I just want to go back
but the ability to turn back time is something I lack
I want to be back at that first smile, that small comment
“are you a REAL ginger?” was the question I sent
I find myself wishing for a cloud full of rain
to pour down and wash away my pain
I cant forget how I used to shine
back when that treasure of love was still mine
back then I had a healthy glow from within
now I only try to steady the quivering of my chin
The hurt I feel goes deep down inside
I once thought it conquered, though it’s inevitable as the tide
And though I know this state I’m in is scary
All I can do is hope that I can eventually call it temporary
It may seem as though my hopes and dreams
Are splitting apart and tearing at the seams
I still wish I could but I can’t lie
And tell you it doesn’t hurt to say this but… goodbye